so wear me like a locket around your throat

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 13:54:20 GMT

Despite having nothing to do, I've been busy.

Here's Benjamin enjoying his Bumbo. Notice the face of supreme happiness.

Ben and DinoBob. BFF.

Ben's new archnemesis. His Left Hand. If he could punch that hand,
he would. He yells at it, stares at it. Gives it the occaisional shifty eye.

He's getting pretty good at holding his head up.

Deep in thought whilst enjoying a delicious nap.

Not much new. We've all been sick. Ben's got his first touch of a cold, and he's not that happy. He's got some dry skin on his cheeks still, and has just figured out he can rub it. That's why he looks so rough in that fist picture. It looks worse than it is.

I have errands all this week. Pretty much every day. Because Ben starts school next week, naturally since I go back to work. (Whhhhhhyyyy!?) I know why, it's all about the money. But still. Hopefully my mom will be better soon so she can watch Benjamin and cut our daycare costs down by, oh, two hundred dollars a week or so. You know?

Speaking of errands, I should get those done. More later!

Stuff and more stuff.

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 16:03:26 GMT

Not much new to report... Sadly.

Things are going well. Ben is healthy. His clogged tear ducts are almost all cleared up. He's losing the dry skin/rashy thing on his cheeks. He's gained five pounds in two months. That's right. Thirteen pounds. But he's super cute. Smiley and happy. Oh, he's almost sleeping through the night! More often than not he'll fall asleep around 10ish, then he'll rustle around three. I'll give him a pacifier and he sleeps until 6. It's nice to be able to sleep again.

Norah is doing well. The usual. School, play, doing stuff. She's getting too smart for me. Gabby is sleeping over Sunday night through Thursday night. That's a lot of nights, I'll tell ya. Should be fun. I hope anyways. I've got some neat stuff planned, here's hoping I feel like doing it. Arts and crafts, movies, the children's museum, the zoo perhaps. Hopefully they'll keep busy enough

I'm still doing the scrapbook thing. I'm trying to find ways to work at home since work is allegedly going to crap. Everytime I go visit everyone tells me its gotten so bad, so I mean, it's kind of disappointing? So I'm trying to find things I can do. I thought crafts, maybe making clothes for kids, or something. Maybe turn a hobby into something to make money. The problem is it's unreliable and kind of chancey. Whereas the job is, you know, corporate, and reliable. It's a toss up.

Since this is our last child, I'd like to not miss his first year working 40-50 hours a week. I'd like to have some flexibility to go to school and finish my degree, to start a career. Because Target is just a job. Granted everyone I work with feels like family, and all of my friends are there. It's just not going anywhere. I'm not going to spend 6+ years in school to get an MBA to get the job I want there. Just for Target. The only thing that keeps me there are the people I work with. It's not rewarding, it's not changing the world. Helping someone pick out an LCD TV isn't changing my life.

Eh, it's still up for debate. Staying at home the last three months has been great, but I'll miss the money. The not worrying about what I buy and where the money goes. Not working loses those benefits. There's always part time. Or not. I'm not sure.

Anywho, gotta go.

Ahhhh.

Fri, 25 May 2007 14:45:51 GMT

I got my TDI check! *does happy dance*

Ah, life without a paycheck sucked. I go back to work in five weeks, that also kind of sucks. Part of me wants to go because I'm bored. Part of me wants to be a stay at home mom because I kind of like it. But work is most of my social life, most of my friends are there, it's like my second family. I need to work anyways so I can go back to school.

Speaking of school, I've narrowed it down to teaching (maybe elementary school, maybe special education?), something to do with information technology, or maybe nursing (I was thinking pediatric). Nursing's on the new side as far as career considerations for me, but I'm willing to look at it. Maybe I've been watching too much ER for my own good. ;) Maybe if I don't do nursing I could look into Occupational Therapy or Social Work. I do relate to children better than adults...

Benjamin is doing well. He's just started smiling (real social smiling, not gas) and getting vocal. He's really very cute. And Huge! Totally huge. He's already almost 11 lbs. He eats like a champ.

Billie Jo and Jeremy had their baby, hooray!

Hopefully most everyone will be at our house for a backyard BBQ on Sunday. That should be fun. I hope Jeremy and Billie Joe can come, so we can see the baby.

Norah fell two weeks ago and bashed her mouth on a table. Now she has a bruised tooth. Which is black. Yay. Norah's dentist says that it's normal and should get lighter. So that's good. Norah's doing better. Her behaviour is getting better. Now that the baby's a little older, we can spend more time with her and do more things for her. So I think she's settling back now.

Josh and I's anniversary is next Sunday. One year already. Having a baby makes that fly by. I hope to go to dinner and a movie to celebrate. Eat what's left of our wedding cake, be happy. It's been a good year, so I can't complain.

My new hobby is scrapbooking. Which seems like the quintessential lonely daytime mom activity, but I actually enjoy it. I did my wedding guest book last week. I'm trying to get my pictures in order to start Norah, and Ben. I finally got all the digital prints I wanted done off KodakGallery, and well, I printed 700. I figure, it was about time.

All my pictures of Norah exist on the computer, I only have a handful of pictures of her printed (for my desk at home and at work), so I didn't think to print them. Josh may have erased all the pictures of Norah that I had on an old computer (which he feels terrible about, even though I keep telling him it's ok). So we lost the first year and half of pictures of her. Luckily for us, Scott and Josh's mom had a bunch of pictures.

I gotta go make a food shopping list and get out to the market before the craziness of Friday starts to pick up.

Fish!

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 21:01:59 GMT

I had forgotten earlier. But here is the newest addition to the Wexler family:

Snowball Rose Wexler

Josh pointed out, it's a nice name for a lady of the night. But Norah likes it, and well, we couldn't change her mind. He/She/It is happy at home in this beautiful Spongebob Squarepants starter aquarium that Norah picked out. The aquarium is actually damn cute.

Baby Ben.

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 00:02:23 GMT

Introducing...

Benjamin Lucas Wexler

4/10/07
2:03 P.M.

8 lbs. 3 oz.
21 inches.

And he's adorable! He is happy and healthy and perfect. I am doing well after the surgery and handling the two children well. A real update to come later. When I have some energy to type. :)

3 days to go.

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 20:16:21 GMT

Updating my iPod today and getting ready for the hospital. Getting things in order. Packing and tidying. I guess the house is ready. Eh, I'm too tired to really work on it anymore. I do have to clean my bedroom, it's a mess again. (ahem Joshua). I have laundry too.

I had my last doctor's appointment on Thursday, I'm so happy I'm not tied to that place anymore. The doctor said the baby is going to be "a good size", what that means I'm frightened of. I hope he fits into all the clothes I have for him. I remember Norah lost weight and then gained it back, but I'm still hoping I'm not going out to buy new clothes in the first month. I'll cry.

Been having contractions all day, so I haven't been doing as much as I had hoped (including finishing this LJ entry). Some painful, some not. I'm always so confused as to what a real contraction feels like, but I know I'm not going into labor... yet. I don't want to miss that Easter buffet! So I watched TV and took a nap and delayed getting dressed until now. I do have to pick up Norah in about an hour.

I did spend way too much time on the internet this morning. So now it seems April 10th is sneaking up on me, because I just can't get stuff done.

Josh has two weeks off starting today, which is exciting. What is not exciting is that neither of us have vacation until next year. So the baby is our "vacation". It's a pseudo vacation.

I'm so happy it feels like we actually have this maternity leave under control. I'll need the extra help because of the surgery and taking care of Norah. We'll have more money and I'll get TDI eventually. The tax refunds will roll in soon and I'll feel better about money, seeing as how I just finished the last of my vacation and time off from work today.

I need to get moving. I probably won't post until after the C Section. I'll post pictures of the baby as soon as I can. We still need a name, by the way. Don't ask. I just can't decide.

New update.

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 14:02:28 GMT

Well, I'm still pregnant. I'm still here. I've been out of work for two weeks now. I normally shouldn't complain, but I'm starting to get bored. Especially on the days that Norah is at school. It gets very lonely. I know I'll have a whole new person to occupy my time in just ten days, but I just can't shake the lonely feeling.

I've been nesting like crazy! Cleaning the house. Organizing the house. Recleaning the house. It's tiring and I feel like I do it every damn day (actually I do). But I guess I'm making some progress?

We redecorated the living room, painted, got new couches. I cleaned Norah's room (a rat's nest mind you), our room (more of a rat's nest due to neglect). I'm working on the kitchen today I hope. I've got to clean out the pantry and find a place for Martha's collection of 25 year old booze. Where? I'll think of something. It all depends. All the stuff is totally overwhelming, but I'll do it. I need to otherwise I'll go crazy. It's hard when five adults live in a house together, but we have five adults, a four year old and an infant. It makes sense for things to be organized and the easiest to deal with as possible.

I'm not feeling well as of late. But that's the whole pregnancy thing. I'm swelling, sore and itchy. My body hurts, and I still have sciatica from where the baby is laying. It's super painful. Sitting, laying down, walking, standing - all difficult and painful. Mentally, I'm really very moody and can be deeply sad as of late. I'm having a hard time with that. Josh and I are having some issues, but nothing too serious. But it definitely impacts my mood and a bunch of other things. I'm lingering on it and I know I should just let it go, but I'm stuck on it.

When I'm not sleeping or cleaning I'm not doing much.

I did see 300 which I thought was fantastic.

We're taking Norah to see Meet the Robinsons this weekend. It got mixed reviews, but kid's movies always do. I think the critics need to relax a little bit, eh? It's just a kids movie. We're also probably taking her bowling on Sunday. It depends on how I feel.

A lot of our attention is on the baby and getting ready for the baby and I think that's rough for her. She's been good, but still acting out a little more than usual. I think she's pretty apprehensive although excited about the baby (funny, since so am I ha ha ha).

Sleeping was pretty rough last night, and I haven't had much of an appetite. I think it goes back to my mood. The appetite thing kills me, either I need to consume vast amounts of food or I'll only eat a pancake. When I was pregnant with Norah I couldn't stop eating. I did well with weight gain this time, I just broke about 25 lbs. (I wasn't very trim when I started). But I hope the appetite is mood related and not anything serious. I need my food.

I should get dressed. It is ten o clock. I should eat something and work on the big baby list. Cleaning the kitchen. Wooooooooo.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 17:34:58 GMT

And I'm back.

We've been doing a lot of buying this month. Yesterday I acquired (through good timing and luck) a Nintendo Wii. Why? Well I want to play Zelda. And I just want one. There's a subliminal message somewhere in the Wii's advertising that says I need this. So that's what I've been thinking about. The games are promising, and I like a lot of the upcoming releases. I'm still not sure if I'm getting rid of my Gamecube though.

In addition to the Wii, last week Josh and I invested in an Xbox360. We got Gears of War. Which Josh likes, but I think it's too dark! And not dark content wise (I don't mind the gore and shooting and violence) it's just too dark for me to see what's going on. I see the appeal of the game and am willing to give it a go and play it, I just gotta play with the knobs and whatnot a little. I'm impressed with the system over all and I like a lot of the games on it. So that looks promising.

Two out of the three next gen systems in less than a month. Wheee. Honestly, the Wii is my birthday present and I'll be lucky to squeeze a card out of the husband this year since I spent too much on it. If he remembers to buy me one in the first place.

We also got a new DVD player, due to my solemn vow of not playing another DVD on a game system ever. Unless I wish it to die painfully like our Xbox. *sniff* Also a portable DVD player, and now after some vigorous toy shopping Norah is mostly done with her Chrismahanukwaza presents or whatever we're calling it this year.

My birthday is in two weeks. Blah - 25. I'm underwhelmed this year. I have nothing planned and will probably work the whole weekend through. I'll see if I can weasel out of Friday. Perhaps.

Norah is doing well and went for her second hair cut last night. Apparently Fantastic Sams = hacks. Well that's according to the other "cheap, quick" haircut place we went to. Alas it doesn't matter since I just won't pay that much for a haircut on a three year old.

I am exhausted this week for some reason and it's a miracle if I can stay awake past 9:00. It's so sad.

Hopefully I can get some laundry or cleaning done today. I think not anyways.

I have nothing to do but work for the next four days, so that's where my free time is going I guess. My life is all glamour. Oh yeah.

My pasta is ready! Time for lunchies.

Still here!

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 17:15:58 GMT

I am alive. I'm still pregnant. Five months now. Four to go!

Yesterday we found out we're having a boy!

I immediately went shopping for baby clothes. Norah started telling strangers that she's having a baby brother. Everyone seems to be pleased with the outcome. The baby is perfect and healthy so far and I'm feeling pretty darned good.

Work is rough, and getting worse. The next two months will go by quickly, but that's a good thing.

Planning and executing Thanksgiving for next week. Living at the Wexler house is still ok. Looking at houses in the area and we're actually pretty hopeful about what we can afford.

Heading to work for the night. Then a busy weekend with the Wii launch. Our PS3 launch was anticlimactic, so I'm pretty happy I got to sleep in.

I'll do some updating soon. It's hard. I save most of my energy for Norah (and Josh) and work. Livejournal, feeling the pain unfortunately.

Ack! I haven't updated in forever!

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 18:55:12 GMT

I'm here. Somewhat. I haven't updated since the wedding. I've been busy for good reason.

Work and whatnot keeping me busy.

I also have news!

I'm expecting another child in March. Unintentional and unplanned, but still a pleasant surprise. I'm so excited and frightened at the same time. Happy of course, just anxious about having two kids when one seems really demanding.

I'm about ten weeks along. Having a lot of problems with just sheer exhaustion and nausea. But I'm doing ok. Most people are excited which is cool.

That's all for now. Sitting at the computer just makes me feel plain old bad.... So I'll update soon. :)

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:44:48 GMT

I have the internet again! I'm all moved into the new place.

I didn't disappear tragically. I'm ok.

I shall update soon! :)

Moving.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 12:01:22 GMT

I think if I dismantle my computer, I'll get more packing done.

That being said. I'll be away until at least Sunday.

My house is a mess, the destination house is a mess. All is well! :)

I have a LOT to do.

Packing and Yard Sale Prep today, tomorrow and Friday. Ikea Thursday. Yard Sale Saturday. Moving Saturday and Sunday.

I don't want to move my couches again. It's very tempting to just sell them or leave them here. :) Free couches!

Norah's doing well at school. Learning, playing with kids.

I'll elaborate more on life and stuff when I have some time.

I've met my 8:00 internet quota for the day. And most of that was spent at the Ikea website.

8:01 gotta go! :)

Small Update. Nothing huge.

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 16:23:28 GMT

Just some bullet points regarding the last two weeks until I can write a real update.

The wedding went well. Not much has changed. More proof that Josh and I really didn't need a paper to say we're married. We were married already. Geez. Waiting for the professional pics back from Caitlin, I'll post those when they come in. I'll elaborate too. It was amazing. We were goofy, but we had fun and it was small and intimate just like we wanted. A few small snags, but the important things were all taken care of. :)

Norah starts daycare on Monday.

We move into Martha's house next weekend. We're painting and cleaning and getting rooms back to live-able standards. Tough after a few years of just being storage rooms. Come to our yard sale on Saturday (the 24th!), I need to sell things. Most of my things.

Still touching up paint on Norah's room. It was the darkest shade of forset green you can imagine. Think two to three coats of primer one coat of paint and an extensive touch up. It will be cute once I get the floors cleaned and the rugs down.

Going to Ikea next Thursday to hopefully get the last of the things we need for her room and ours. Curtains. Furniture bits. Stuff like that.

I need to go food shopping today as I haven't gone since before the wedding. Two weeks ago. Our fridge contains one lonley bottle of Coke, a gallon of spring water (from Jeremy I assume), condiments and butter. Maybe an onion? Expired cheesy hot dogs? I cleaned it out and was less than thrilled with the results.

I need to write thank you notes to all the guests and my vendors. Norah needs new clothes for daycare. I need new clothes for work (I'm down to one pair of pants and a couple of shirts).

Working this weekend. Which I dread with every bone in my body. DREAD. I hate closings and it's father's day weekend. So it will be inexplicably busy. People need to buy gifts ahead of time! I should talk, I haven't started yet.

My grandmother fell down the stairs and dislocated and broke her ankle. She's in surgery now because it won't go back into the joint. I'm going to visit her tomorrow. Hopefully I can bring Norah. Someone remind me to get a card and flowers (Josh!).

Okay. Off I go to Target, Old Navy and to get something for lunch. And maybe Lowe's. But I need to measure first. So maybe not?

Two days to go!

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 12:32:38 GMT

Heartburn! Anxiety! Exhaustion!

Weddings are too much fun.

I spent more money this week than I can to disclose. I wrote my biggest personal check EVER. Frightening.

I don't have much left. Here's the run down on the rest of the week. Just in case I forget. Which I can't since I make a new list every two minutes.

Yesterday: Cleaning. Laundry. Work. Today: Pedicure, Hair trim, Eyebrow waxing, Food Shopping for Rehearsal Dinner, Josh's Haircut. Pick up tuxes. Friday: Clean Martha's house, get ready for rehearsal dinner. Get everything together. Pack for overnight. Saturday: Manicure. Up Do. Make up. And oh yeah. Wedding. :)

Norah's excited. I can't contain my insanity. And Josh is blase. At best.

Oh! I lost my engagement ring. If anyone finds it, let me know. I'm quite sad about it. But I'm hoping it will turn up when we move. It was so sparkly. I can't have anything nice, it never works out. : /

Work was awful yesterday. I didn't want to work, but yet I was assigned tasks I wanted to blow off until Monday. Why can't they let me loaf the last night of work for the next four days. :) I don't understand.

Time to go, coffee's ready! :)

If I don't update until Monday, sorry. Depends on what's on the plate. I'll try and post preliminary pictures then. Did I mention it's going to rain? All day? Yuck. At least it's all indoors.

Wed, 24 May 2006 18:32:06 GMT

Today starts the wedding anxiety. Well, technically it's already started, this is the first day I'll admit it.

I'm planning for the rehearsal dinner and taking care of the last minute things. As far as things left to do goes, all I can do now is try and write things down in my notebook as I think of them. I don't have much else.

My heartburn has been non stop for at least four days. I can't sleep, I can't think of anything else. I'm anxious about everything. So anxious I'm totally overwhelmed by everything else. Work. Cleaning the house. Food shopping. It's driving me crazy.

Josh's dad gets fitted for his tux tonight. And hopefully we're having a relaxing non wedding related weekend. That's right. Friday evening through Tuesday (Yay Memorial Day!) with nothing wedding related. Just hanging out (hopefully outside) as a family. I'm excited more about that than the real wedding. ;)

Tuesday after work I go drop off about six grand at the Westin. Wednesday I close. Thursday is manicure and waxing. Also shopping for the rehearsal dinner. Which did I mention, I'm hosting myself? (CRAZY). Friday is rehearsal dinner cooking/cleaning/preparing. Saturday is hair, pedicure. Oh and WEDDING.

I'm out of my mind at the moment.

Oh and I don't like Whitestrips. They make me gag and don't sit on my teeth right. *sigh* Curse you coffee!

Mon, 22 May 2006 23:40:48 GMT

So. I'm at Fenway Park.

I don't know if I'm more excited about the food than the Red Sox.

Look for us on TV!!! We're five rows behind home plate on the left.

I'm wearing a hot pink Jem tshirt.

Some guy is up to bat that I think is bad. Yeahn he sucked.

Johnny Damon is up, I suppose I should pay attention!!

Bye.

Thu, 18 May 2006 14:38:51 GMT

Two weeks and the whole wedding thing is swinging into high gear. Financial woes for the wedding have been miraculously alleviated thanks to a generous gift from Sherwin and Martha. I think Josh and I were floored by the whole thing. It was the most amazing thing they could have done for us.

After the wedding we start moving into Martha's house. I'm on wedding related stuff for the next solid week. But hopefully I can take a night and stroll the paint department at Home Depot and find something good for Norah's room. It's going to be nice to have a little spending money again and not have to worry about where the rent is coming from.

Mostly all that's left for the wedding is final meetings and payments. Everything seems to be planned out. I just gotta get a few odds and ends. And hopefully my work schedule is cooperative for that week or I'm going to cry and call out a lot! :)

Going to the mall today with my sister. Buying make up from MAC, figured it was worth the expense. Have to pick up some small things and then probably going to WalMart or Michael's to pick up the rest of the wedding junk I need. Then I just gotta finish my dwindling list of printing jobs that I've lined up for myself.

I. Need. Coffee. Badly.

Work is work. Last night sucked due to complete lack of any staffing. I was left to run the sales floor (cover calls, help people, get stuff from the stockroom) essentially by myself. For the whole night. Yay! It was awesome.

I'm really putting serious thought into what I want to do when I go back to college. Retail sucks, and I love Target, but I can't stay here forever. I'm thinking Teaching or Computer nonsense. Either has its benefits and drawbacks, but I figure something out.

Off to make coffee. Apologies ahead of time if my updates are sparse, it's going to be a busy two weeks!

More wedding junk.

Wed, 03 May 2006 15:29:15 GMT

We are less than one month away from the big day and I'm panicked by all the things I have to get done. Not to mention all the money I have to drop this month on various expenses.

Work is tiring. We were all sick AGAIN for about a week. It started with Norah and then to Josh and then me. I seemed to get the least sick. I just had a fever and body aches, luckily nothing else.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow and my day off. Then I work late this weekend, which I don't mind since I'm closing with one of the better managers. Then I have next weekend off, which is the reception food tasting and the finalization of all that. I'm in awe of how much that is going to cost. But I digress. We still have a lot to pay for (photographer, DJ, florist are the big ones left).

I went and had my dress bustled last night by Martha's friend Diane. Martha got to see my dress for the first time. I'm so lucky it fits perfectly, even though I still had to buy a new dress. And it's pretty comfy to wear (I still haven't sat down in it yet, though, I'm too afraid to try.) So the dress is out of the house for a week or so being altered. I still need to get my sister a dress.

I have a page long list of stuff typed that I need to do for the wedding. Tuxes, dresses, jewelry, planning, I still have a lot to go. I'm kind of in a slump (and a month before is not the time to be in a slump). But I think it's the sickness not laziness.

Norah is doing well, she's very excited still about the wedding.

I can't wait for this planning nonsense to be over. I just want to get it over with so we can be married already. In retrospect I should've saved the money and just eloped. Ha! Josh will kill me. :)

Someday soon the wedding entries will stop, just not today!

I'll have to get a picture post up to show off all the stuff that I've done. But that's at the bottom of the list. I still need to write our ceremony and write out the music list for Derek. That's today's task. Luckily I don't have to work until 4:30, so that's kind of a blessing.

Ack!

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 14:42:39 GMT

Wedding planning is draining my soul.

Norah was pretty sick for a week or so. Between fevers, vomitting, lethargy and some other stuff. So she seems better. Has gone a day without getting sick. She's back to being bright and sunny like she normally is.

We went to the park last week when she was sick on my day off to fly kites and play soccer (Norah's new hobby). She had fun, but I could tell she didn't feel good. So we're going back this week if the weather is nice (which is questionable). That way she'll be good and ready to enjoy it. Plus it takes me away from the wedding planning. If not Thursday then Sunday. Whichever.

I'm still on the music, I've got some good stuff and it's getting better but I think that when I run out of the stuff I want to hear at the wedding we'll just play some crappy top 40. Or maybe just jazz? 20% of the guests are young, but really don't dance (Josh and I included. I won't even dance when I'm drunk). 60% of the guests are old or can't dance. So they probably won't. The last twenty percent may dance, but I'm not sure to what. So whatever. I'm done with music. :P

I have a huge list of things to take care of. And someone's procrastinating. *cough* JOSH. He has stuff he needs to take care of so we can move on! That and I have a bunch of stuff myself. So I need to get off my butt and working on that massive list.

I should be folding laundry... But I'm not. Yikes.

I promise the wedding entries will stop soon! But sadly, that's the excitement in my life at the moment.

Wedding moooosic.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 15:42:33 GMT

We're meeting with the DJ tonight to talk music, and I just need to be prepared. We don't really dance, so I just want some hip and fun mingling music. I want to go the whole reception without hearing the YMCA or the Electric Slide or any other annoying dancy type song ever. ;)

I'm on this quest to find some great and unusual alternative, punky and indieish songs to play at my wedding. I have a list of about 20 songs so far, but I need more! Luckily iTunes had a great Essentials of indie love songs (saved!)... I got quite a few from that list, but I'm still looking for more. *sigh* (I need a particular hard-to-find Bright Eyes song if anyone has it, I'll love you FOREVER!).

First Dance - Ever the Same by Rob Thomas (it's sappy, but I'm a huge Matchbox 20 fan, and I love Rob Thomas).

Cake Cutting - Nothing but Love - Trading Yesterday (I needed to work my David Hodges infatuation into my wedding somehow).

General background music:
(some of it is Top 40ish, but I do like those songs regardless).

The Luckiest - Ben Folds
Wake Up - Coheed and Cambria
Yellow - Coldplay
Follow Through - Gavin DeGraw
You and I Both - Jason Mraz
Sunday Morning - Maroon 5
My Best Friend - Weezer
Love Song - 311 (I like their version better, OK!?!)
Call and Answer - Barenaked Ladies
First Day of my Life - Bright Eyes
Ice Cream - Sarah McLachlan
Accidentally in Love - Counting Crows
We're Going to Be Friends - The White Stripes (I just love that song!)
Girl - Beck
Maps - The YYY's
Sea of Love - Cat Power
Passenger Seat - Death Cab for Cutie
One Day - Trading Yesterday
Fall into You - David Hodges
Beautiful - Trading Yesterday
High - James Blunt
Life is Wonderful - Jason Mraz
You Found Me - Kelly Clarkson
A handful of Eisley songs that are just stunningly beautiful too...

It seems like so little when I type it out. I need to pick classical music for the ceremony too... This wedding junk is too much work! :) I have about five hours of music to plan.

I really want Panic! at the Disco's I Write Sins not Tragedies as the going away/last song, but I don't think my mother would like the whole: "I hear the poor groom's bride is a whore" line... But it's such a good song! :)

If anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

Otherwise, I have no idea what to do today! I was going to go food shopping, but I don't know what we want to eat this week. I seem to be fixated on the whole wedding music.

Somewhat cross posted to weddingplans.

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 17:29:12 GMT

I had a journal entry in here for over a week! It's no longer relevant, so I deleted it.

I worked overnight last night (Sunday to Monday) and it killed me. I feel like I was hit by a truck. I had to be there to oversee the construction of my new Electronics counter... Nothing says fun quite like hanging out with five shady contractor guys from 7:00 pm until well past 5:00 am. I love my job. :/ Not to mention I already went in to work very early in the day (I left for Ad Set at 5:30 am on Sunday morning, left around 9:30 and then came back for 7:00 pm). So I got home roughly the same time I left for work the first time. Yikes.

Anywho I kept busy by doing the MMB and Electronics push in lieu of a flow team member. I guess I can do it faster? This was the reasoning. I really was all set to take a seat and read my book and listen to my iPod all night. Not that I could hear it anyways. Lets say there was a wet tile saw and a jackhammer involved.

So I have today off, and it's kind of nice. Then I work tomorrow at 6:00 am (yay! another early day). I feel yucky, but I'm not as tired as I thought I would be.

Wedding stuff is coming along. Just trying to assemble the photographer and the DJ (both are somewhat of a distance thing) and get the last few small things out of the way. Then it's just 54 days to go. And I need to find my birth certificate for my wedding liscence. And pick a hair style (I have sooooo much hair, it's hard). And a bunch of other stuff. It's on the impending list of doom! Doooooom.

Anywho, I need to use the last scraps of energy I have to tidy up the house. Tata!

Wedding = My Life.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:11:36 GMT

I called my uncle! He said yes. It was easier than I thought, so I'm pleased. We need two people to witness our ceremony and sign the marriage license. So off to pick that. I just don't want to have someone in the traditional Best Man/Maid of Honor role.

I dropped off the deposit at the Westin, signed the reception contract, and dropped off the deposit to the florist. So that's all done. The impending list of doom is getting smaller.

We're taking Norah to see Ice Age 2 this weekend. She's excited.

I need to buy Kingdom Hearts 2, but first I want to buy Chibi Robo, which means I'll have to bust the Gamecube free of storage. Maybe I can play old school Animal Crossing again. Josh is really into Guitar Hero, but I'm bad at those coordination games (especially DDR).

Work is going well. I have a lot going on so the days fly by. We're still trying to find a good preschool for Norah. I'm still working on the conversion thing (I need to read more of my book and pick up the Hebrew Rosetta Stone)... Passover's coming up (I'm excited, I love Passover food). Easter's coming (yay Easter candy).

Ok, enough LJ, laundry is ready to be folded! :)

Fatty fat fat.

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 17:32:54 GMT

*sigh* I am too fat for my wedding dress. Or rather my weight has shifted since I bought it three years ago. Which is expected.

So this Saturday, the quest for a new dress! I will either sell the other dress on eBay or I'll donate it somewhere. It was only $300 bucks anyways, and it was already paid for, I just don't want to throw another $500 dollars onto our wedding tab. But whatever.

I looked at some fairly inexpensive ones. So I'm not really worried about cost. It's unreasonable for me to think that I can lose the ten to fifteen pounds in the six weeks. That's with the great temptations of Passover and Easter forthcoming as well. But I'm still trying to eat healthier and be more active. And less of a LJ slave. Because that's not losing me any weight. ;)

I did feel good that one day where I ate a healthy breakfast, some fruit for a snack, and then a salad for lunch. I felt energetic and crap, which is unusual for me. Then I ruined it with Chinese food and fell asleep not long after. *sigh* I suck.

Anywho. I gotta close again at work tonight. Last night was hellish, we were there until midnight. Thank you Target Shoppers for tearing apart our store. I really love the overtime. (sarcasm)

Otherwise wedding planning is going ok. I feel like we accomplish so much at once and then I go for a week or so where I just don't care.

This week I sign the contract with the Westin, assemble my invites, put a deposit down on the florist (wanna see my a sample of my bouquet?), and a new wedding dress (I was thinking of this one).

So not bad, I'll be busy... Yay! Lunchtime.

Yay!

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 16:00:04 GMT

Hooray for the stomach flu! I've been sick with it for three days! I hate my intestines about now.

The weekend started out all well and good for the wedding planning. We went to Blooming Blossoms on Hope Street, met Pam. She made us a sample bouquet, gave us an estimate (may I add a YIKES on the floral estimate). We went to the second florist and she was kind of flighty and not really professional. The Knot had rated the second florist as more affordable, but she was only ten dollars less expensive than Pam. And Pam was "over estimating costs" so to speak. So it make work out to be a little cheaper.

Then the getting sick began. First it was Norah. So we had the cake tasting appointment at 3:30. Stephanie was so brave and came over to watch Norah while she napped. We tasted our cakes and came up with a design that I liked (the swirlies and dots that are on our invite). The cake cost us $22 out of pocket. The Westin didn't cover if we wanted a custom design. The cake is kind of small and sad, but I'll be ok. I'm gonna buy a nice cake stand and we'll decorate the table it's on nicely.

We went with a vanilla cake with chocolate buttercream and rasberry preserves on the inside and vanilla buttercream on the outside. It was tres tasty.

So we got back and Norah woke up and yapped on poor Steph. Then she continued to be sick all night before dropping off to bed at around 10:00. She woke up the next day and seemed fine, we went to Target so I could pick up a few things and stop by David's Bridal to pick up the shoes I had ordered. Norah started to act a little weird so we took her home and put her on the couch, she had a fever. So she took Tylenol and the fever got better rather quickly.

The next day (Monday) very early in the AM, Josh and I both get sick. We continue to be sick and miserable the rest of the day. Tuesday Josh felt better, but I didn't really, so we went out to get supplies, mostly bread and Gatorade. I had a killer headache... We got Chicken Little for Norah which I slept through.

So I had four days off from work. I got to work tonight (late, yay!) and then I'm off tomorrow. I still don't feel great, but I don't have a lot of vacation time, so I can't stay out much longer.

This is my favorite revelation from this weekend... My mom apparently has enough money to go on, not one, but two vacations this summer. But she can't afford to help pay for my wedding? She really frustrates me sometimes (ok all the time)... Not to mention when I go to sink $7000 dollars into this thing she's going to drop the "I can't baby sit anymore" bomb and I'm going to be deathly broke. Probably right after we renew our lease. That would be our kind of fate. So we'll be shit out of luck with a place to live and we'll owe money on the wedding and still have to pay for daycare. We should just start prepping to move back in with Martha anyways, cause that's what it's going to have to take. Hello storage facility.

Now I'm in such a cheery mood! If it weren't for the vacation thing, I'd be happier, but it seems so selfish. Not that I ever expected her to pay for the wedding. It does kind of seem selfish for me to expect her to pay for my wedding, or at least help, but that's how it's done. Bride's family pays for the wedding.

Sometimes I wish my mom wouldn't see watching Norah during the day as a job. Cause I don't see it that way. It's a great opportunity to watch your granddaughter grow up and play with her everyday. To have a bond with her that no one else has. But instead my mom treats it like a job. So if she's not watching Norah what's she going to do? Sit around all day watching TV, smoking herself to death? Because that's what I see happening. This whole thing sucks. I'm so tired of it.

That's it for now!

Sorry for the totally random entry.

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 22:01:50 GMT

I don't know why I'm so apprehensive about calling my Uncle Ken to see if he can officiate the stupid wedding. I just get so anxious before I call.

Aside from the fact I hate to use the telephone... I can't see why. But normally if things are important I can bypass that.

I just need to call.